Life Tag

Hello dear readers. I hope you’ve had a nice start to September and that as summer has finally ended the autumn weather has slowly seeped in as the days go by. As I am writing this post, my cousin Savina is off to Australia and it’s been a month since we got married. I honestly can’t believe that time has passed so quickly within a blink of an eye that it’s almost quite terrifying to be fair; and so I thought I would share with you all a quote from Brian Cox about The Arrow of Time:

The Arrow of Time dictates that as each moment passes, things change, and once these changes have happened, they are never undone. Permanent part is a I a fundamental part of being human. We all age as the years pass by — people are born, they live, and they die. I suppose it’s part of the joy and tragedy of our lives, but out there in the universe, those grand and epic cycles peer eternal and unchanging. But that’s an illusion. See, in the life of the universe, just as in our lives, everything is irreversibly changing.

Brian Cox, Wonders of the Universe, BBC 2.

I think that the quote summarises beautifully how life moves on in one direction and that in this vast universe things are not always fixed and constant; just like relationships, friendships, people, interests, your state of mind. Within these relationships and lives, there are so many things that are happening all at the same time- people growing, moving on, falling in love, learning from experiences and making new connections etc. I found the quote so moving I did actually cry as I was writing out my speech- I felt extremely grateful for having and knowing so many people who care about us. And in saying that, I was going to read this for my speech but I ended up changing it as I found something else which was shorter! TBF, I lost count on how many times I ended up editing my speech until I was happy with it.

When I look back it all seems like a distant memory. I’m still looking at photos from our wedding day and whenever I look at them I always seem to pick up other people’s expressions, which gives me a different perspective during that moment in time.

So, September is another time for change (for me anyway) let’s see what happens in the next couple of weeks. My art has been a bit on the back burner lately and unfortunately I’m not feeling too inspired to pick up my pen and draw, maybe because of the stress of the wedding and starting a new job at the same time has left me slightly burnt out. I hope to start making more new artwork when I’m feeling ready and energised again. For now though, I’m not pressuring myself to make any new artwork as I now that I’ll most likely hate what’s on the computer.

This post seems more like a diary entry than anything I have written in the past. I love having this space to be honest about stuff and to let go of negative thoughts. I hope you all take care and look after yourselves. Remember, you’re not alone. Reach out to people if you need a chat about things. There are always people out there who will listen to you.

Enjoy the rest of your week,

Jo

Less than two days until I go to Hong Kong and I already have mixed feelings: nervousness, fear, anxiety, happiness, and excitement. For the past few days I’ve been an emotional wreck, which I shouldn’t feel. I was feeling super pumped about going and now the reality of it has finally crept in, I’m starting question lots of things like am I doing the right thing? I’ve come to realise that fear and security holds us back from doing things. It may seem slightly insignificant to others but the two biggest steps I have taken so far was moving away from Sam and moving back to my parent’s house. Because Sam isn’t coming with me, I’m going on my own which is another scary thing. However, I believe that I’ll learn a lot about myself from this experience.

I think now’s the time to find my own feet in the world, make my own decisions, and to look after myself for a while (cooking for myself- argh!) Life is full of challenges; opportunities like this don’t often come by. I’m still a little bit sad that I’m not living in London but I know that this is only temporary and which is why I should embrace it. This is also the only time where I can be free and spontaneous, which is what I craved when I was working.

And have a fucking good time and stop worrying so much.